MeandEddie

this is a pic of me and Edward just after our wedding.
it makes me think, honestly.
about the way things were before i met him, and how things have been since.
Before, you can ask people, ( meaning spykevoorhees and pandajenn) I wasnt the best person. i was vindictive, Compulsive, slutty and above all else, overly dramatic, bringing my drama to everyones lives and therefor Ruining them. things were in a downward spiral, my friends were leaving me, my sanity fleeting as well. One man after another, i used the male species like toilet tissue. one after another, never ceasing.
then i Met Edward.
and the Insanity ceased, almost automaticly.
It was almost like the calming of a hurricane, the slowing to a stop of a Horrid clanging din in your ears, so loud and piercing that it hit your soul with every slam of its maloderous macabre ring.
like the calm before a storm. Only the storm came first.
I met eddie, and he met me, and suddenly, an old friendship rekindled. I found that when i was young, about 4 or so, Little Edward used to come over to my mothers house to play with me and help my mom. As soon as we looked into eachothers Green eyes, that sense of knowing shot forward out of the dark. a sort of " i've known you all along" feeling that quells the screaming of your soul.
5 years and 2 beautiful daughters later, I dont regret my past.
and yet i would die if i ever had to re-live it.
If somehow i was shot back into the past.. 6 years back, knowing what i do now..
I would have waited for eddie. I wouldnt have sleazed around, made myself a whore for anyones use and disuse.
I would have waited for him to find me, Just as he did in 2001.
Love is patient, Love is kind.
Love never fails.
Eddie has helped me Grow up, and i have helped him in turn to Realize his full potential.
The Soap Opera is over, Ladies and Gents. Now let my Life continue, without the Drama.
Let me be in Love.